study = fail

study + No Study = Fail + No Fail

Study ( 1 + No) = Fail ( 1 + No)

thereforee....

Study = Fail

TEEHEE!

jangan luan dipecaya ni ah. made by idiots. heeee

diragui kehalalannya :p

...

okay

assalamualaikum...

selamat hari raya....

i have less than a month to..

nevermind

pheww im nervous.

0kay ive got something to tell and, antahah

you can say im stupid, you can say im a jerk. im both of 'em. honestly, i decided to leave. i know, i know. ive wasted some part of my life. wait i'll calculate

im 17 years and 2 months old. okay ive waited for err.. 5 years? which is 60 months.

17 years and 2 months makes a total of 206 months. so...

60/206 X 100

=29.1%

so.. i've bet 29.1% of my life. to know shes happy out there, really happy, its enough for me. well i should know i can never be someone in the slot of her heart. shes happy and i should be happy too. the reason why is yet unclear for you guys, i know. its okay. i know ive waited for long and i should know what she meant for my wait is me to move on. shes happy out there, and im happy for her. painful? yes but you may never know whats ahead of you.

dont worry. im okay and im happy. and indeed, honestly, i just realise......

(refer to my post 'a story to be told')

if you get what i mean there, you should know what happened to me.

now im neutral.

empty.

hollow.

well im still filled with fats and all. duh~

im just saying, i just realise.

what really happened in the long wait.

shes there and i just couldnt realise.

-buls

p.s. im sorry, im the reason for your downs.

i have 2 boxes and there are 2 kittens in it but only 1 will win the heart, and nil will be left out.

eye loft vu

a story to be told

(;

once upon a time..

came a beggar in front of a palace.

with the beggar was a lady.

a lady of a perfect made.

the beggar wanted to own the palace

but he didnt dare to talk to the king

though the king knew what the beggar really wants was the palace.

the lady with the beggar indirectly told the beggar to stop asking for the palace

the lady said she could offer something similar to the palace, though not near, which is actually far better, to the beggar

but the beggar listened none of what the lady has said..

the beggar continued to wait and wait and wait.

years passed by

the beggar dont seem to give up

the lady with the beggar in the first place kept on coming and offering,

never giving up offering

however the beggar stayed arrogant, not listening to any of the lady's words.

until after the long year

the lady no longer came up as always as before

only then the beggar realised

he wanted to stop asking for the palace

he began to realise that he was forcing himself for the palace

he no longer was willing to stay for the palace

only then he realised what he lost

he began to look for the lady

but the lady has already reserved the offeree to someone else

someone better

not even a beggar.

far better from a beggar.

the beggar's feeling collapsed after he knew about the lady

he then realised

its the palace that's holding himself from realising what was there

he regretted what he's done

and he began to hint the lady

he was trying to ask from the lady what she offered before,

in an indirect way

however he kept on going through heartbreaks

as the lady had no idea what he really meant

plus the offeree has been reserved for someone else

better

far better from a beggar

now the lady stayed,

waiting for the better one to confirmly accept her offer

with the beggar, staying there, trying to regain his place like before

with full of heartbreaks, and patience.

cos only then he realised,

what he really want is what the lady has offered, not the palace owned by the king,

the beggar kept on telling himself

saying that he'll lose to the better one, since he's a beggar and no one would ever want to offer something

the beggar regretted not realising things earlier.

now he can only wait, and wait, and wait.

and suffer lots of heartbreak.

the beggar who woke up

-buls

p.s.

im sorry i pretended all this time. now i cant hold on cos its way too strong.

im sorry.

indirectly?

assalamualaikum. sorry been long. not blogging or updating my blog or whatever. i dont know...

yeah, its almost 1st August of the 'full of tears' year 2009. The year hasnt ended yet but lotsa things are seriously getting on our emotion in every state and medium. whether its love story, of friendship, or birthday, or whatever. maybe 2009 is your best year so far but im one among the ones who's dying slowly through the 2009 chronology. whether you get me on this, it doesnt really matter. im saying what the heart says.

okay ima gonna say what happened to my so called 'love life', the reason why i create this blog. to story off the live life. im still waiting. waiting outside the door, for hours that feels like seconds, just to give you your favourite chocolate. we go for what we intend. so i'll wait. i can leave anytime but i just dont want to. i saw your kind and sweet neighbours but nothing like you. my heart goes kind, saying i should give the chocolate to your neighbours but i just dont want to. i saw your neighbours have better chocolates already so i dont think they'll take mine plus still, i dont want to cos its all for you. i can wait for a few hours more. dont worry i can wait. but deep in my heart i can say its impossible for you to open the door and accept my gift. cos i can be anything in your eyes. i just hope you know the chocolate's for you, from me, not from someone else.

- you dont get the above part? ajees i know you'll paham the above part (;-

approach me, to know what the part means.

its been years. honestly 1st august, is when i realised your presence. 1st August 2004. i might not love you for that time but at least im prepared for it. its almost 5 years now. and i'll say i'll love you for another 5 years and more. you've said to me, indirectly, to move on. but why. if it ever hurt you, to know that i love you let me know. i'll leave, i will. but if you ever are alone, and you felt theres some kind of presence beside you, know that its me, loving you wherever you are.

i can say i almost give the chocolates to your neighbour. but somehow as i was about to go to your neighbour, they keep chocolates, a better one, to give it to someone better. so i changed my mind and tried to stay put.

i tried to stay put cos nothing is the same, nothing is similar, to what i felt for you.

honestly i almost did fell for someone, almost, but love takes time brother. it may took months, at least. plus she's in the same situation as i am. she's head over heels for a guy so i'll never get the attention. but you, dearest, i'll wait. i'll wait and will wait. hopes will fade. but i'll follow the heart. i love you.

-chubs

p.s. jees, kau paham ni. im sure hehe. others, let me know by the chatbox (;

thanks

i love her

running 100m in 3 seconds

random post

Hello again Assalamualaikum..

well i wanna unite this post and the one before but, haha reading-fatigue karang eh kamu. anyway most of my friends, this holiday asked me this on MSN.

friend: Hello Bal.

Me: hey (;

friend: how are you? and holiday?

Me: oh im fine never been better. holiday? haha i'd say, im being a couch potato for almost everyday now ;p you?

friend: haha oh really? ahaha im great thanks. eh, hows your love life? goin okay?

Jeng jeng jeng... here comes the jiwang part

oh guys. honestly im im beri the beri pol in lop you know. oh the close ones know much. well i'd say, my love life's goin okay. i mean, ahh let me explain..


well im not with her. im not showing you off that im a bla bla bla but i just wanna make it clear. its been years. well its been 5 goin to 6 years now. i've been lovin and caring and trying. well in that 6 years many things happened but to be honest, loving her and loving other is never same. i dont know. i seemed to give it my all. give it my best shot. i've hurt her before. i wont deny that but there aint no words other than sorry to be said. i mean it to the bottom-est part of my heart with prayers. God will help, insya Allah. Give it your best, you wont regret.

I dont know. she seems to mean the whole world to me but i know, how i look like, who am i. i admit she's got the beauty. And it'll spoil her beauty to be with me. to my thoughts, it'll hurt her for me to love her. maybe i said i'll never leave but for her to be happy is what i really want. I'd leave then, if it hurts her for me to love her. i still dont know wheteher it hurts her or not. but loving her and givin it my all is all i can give.

i'd search for someone that could translate feelings into words so that it can be represented. but what for? my friends keep on givin me advices i should say it out to her but friends, its not the right situation. why? i'll keep that. i can stay much longer. i can wait for her. i dont mind. i love her then i'll wait for her. but im afraid, like i said, it'll hurt her. i just, i just dont know. some said its obvious and she knew already. Like i said, friends, it's not the right time. dont ask me why. the ans's locked.

of all the 6 years as i waited longer im feeling its gettin better and better. im not saying i'v got the chance but me and her's gettin better each day. im happy. very very happy. im only up when shes not down. and it just even make the feelings even stronger. a very soft heart is what i own. try ask my friends for proofs. i can cry easily. especially over an emotional reason. i dun wanna own her but i just want her to know that i love her. its hurtful if she'll never love me back but as long as she smiles from the heart, i can say i will be okay. her happiness my priority.

if im saying i wanna love her till the ocean cover every mountain, then its selfish for me to do that. now im loving you. still. and im right here, beside you.

i dont know what to say anymore
thanks
i love her


CM14
"a dirty shack who fell for a palace"
assalamualaikum.

have a nice day (;

Been long

Assalamualaikum. hey its been long after my last post. sorry. i admit that i wasnt that commited to blogging and kinda lazy too. well most of the time im updating Outs' blog. so anyway, what should i say here? err okay. H1n1. dayyum~


well H1n1 is seriously getting on my nerve. i mean inda pulang aku kana eh but ya know, its freakin' me out. livin' in such a way that i gotta be very very cautious. well, that makes a human better, dont you think?

H1n1 cases in Brunei's reached the 100 border im not sure how many but what i observed when reading brudirect, it keep on increasing every single day. This thing, its just, we cant feel it once we got it. Im sure you all know about it i dont dare to say more cos im afraid im givin you the wrong info.

Because of H1n1, our school's holiday, which is supposed to end by 29th June, is extended for a week till 5th July. meaning on 6th July school lah tu ah. and now's 5th July. sighs. well extension of holiday did give me some time and chances to finish up my homeworks, undone works and revisions but ya know, im too lazy and i keep on saying tomorrow.. tomorrow and now see what's happened. i have about half day left to finish up my homeworks. haha thats not funny. mati. well its my fault i cant blame anyone. yeah? anyway thanks the dudes and dudettes bringin me up to study. you know who you are (;

ahh. and yeah, now its 5th July, 4:49 AM. whoa and im still awake? haha normal~ hehe give you a hint. "You love her, you'll wait for her". ahh easy. anyways, just signed up on MSPSBS moodle just now. I love the technology. Makes my life easier and oh, kinda spoon feeding though but yeah, i wont waste the chance. haha (;

wanna make lots of post. i hope. in this blog. hehe. well see ya then.
Assalamualaikum.
Next post (;


CM14
"i love you"

whutt

hey all. im sorry im not updating my blog regularly cos i've been busy and, i admit laziness strucks my mind ;p and seriously, im not that committed to blogging. heee~

aight. it aint good to start writing now cos mind set inda ngam. haha weee next post ;p

Another song for her

it a song by Rascal Flatts. this song's for her. i really hope she could read this.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most was being
so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

i love you with all my heart
always in every at ease and at hard
i'd give up the world
just so you be my girl
you are my bestmate
you are my soulmate
i will wait for you
whatever it takes

i love you
i really do

****
chubs.

tiring..

ohh. today's Friday the 6th of the heavenly month March, 09. ohhh...


bah today tiring amatt. early morning i received a surprise call darii sii Nabil, hehs a cousin of mine. ya bawa main bula di kebajikan. i was soo lazy but durrg cakap hey're on their way ke my crib. so mahn, appreciate what theyre trin to do so i woke up besiram, shampoo arus gigi, facewash, thats not mandi. mun mandi aii batah saya dijamban tuu. haha so yeah. pack things up and kebawah. Sii ibu buat nasi lemak but alum siap so i left menjangkau saja. namanya alum masak lai mana jua ulah. so off i go (;

then sampai di padang kebajikan, saw ramai urrg packed arah futsal courtnya. so we changed our mind. daripada ramai2 beasak, baik tkar tampat. so we end up main di rumah Abang Yus. i was soo damn tired mahn... batuk selisma lah apalah. inda dapat banyak belari. if not parai ako. haha so yeah(;

got home around 11+. mandi tarus sembahyang jumat. then balik sembahyang jumat lunch, then jalan antar my bros ECA dii PDS orr err SMSS (; then i requested arah my parents to tinggalkan saya di Hua Ho Bunut cos durrg kan kerumah Nini di Mulaut Ban 3. so yeah. they dropped me there and ciao. i was jalan2 macam sii banar di Hua Ho. cari barang untuk party esuk. however i didnt found much there so inda jadi. jalan2 lah lagi. then sudah bored, call my mum minta ambil. then yang mengambil bukan my mum but my 'Bujang Bungsu'. haha so yeah, ke rumah Nini, at 4 my mum ambil my bros and balik semula ke rumah Nini cos we had fun lahh di..kitt sana. so yeah. at 6+ we ciao.

kami ke Batu Satu ara emporium kuning atu baa. searching fr sii daddy punya ubat sal ya batukk. so found one disana and stopped ara this restaurant i dont know what. takeaway. then ciao ke rumah. makan dirumah, its nasi ayam, the food we bought tadii. abis makan, ke Giant lagii cos wanna buy sth. we went there. and i went shopping ;p alone. hehe round round smpai 8+. then balikk.

sampai rumah, on lappy and online. banyak urrg melayan. so i chatted till 1+ whch is around now. bah now i gotta do my hws. s; chem ta yang paling banyakk. shhttt. haha bah eh laterrrs.

not much to say

uhh.. didnt have much to say todayy

after 2 days not attening sch

dayyum i had two tests tadii

Statistics and Chemistry

heh dun ask me how was it

damn its tiring

left with hws and left-out chem practicals

so gotta join other class esuk for chem practical di comp lab!

surprisingly its uh...

From 1-4!!!

bah mati dangan chemist tah ku ni

eyah emo

bah eh im tired mahn

see u soon

readers (;


p.s. I Love U So
****
|;

R&B now

heyy. its a song by Joe-feel for you. post it here cos wanna share with ya all. the song is kinda nice to hear. so yeah. it feels deep inside, too. s;


I Can't Believe
That I Am Admitting This To You
Coz If You Know Me
Then You Know How Hard
It Is For Me To Say What I Mean.


Now I've Seen This On Tv
Twice In The Movies,
Never Thought That
It Could Happen To Your Homie.
Now I'm A Believer
In All The Things To Do With You Coz
I've Never Felt That


Our Love Could Be Perfect
And That's What I Feel For You
And Don't You Forget That
That You're More Than Worth It
And That's What I Feel For You
I Feel Like Ali
When He Shook Up The World
And Like Prince Felt When He Wrote
"The Most Beautiful Girl"
Your Love Is Like A Song I Love To Sing
And That's What I Feel For You


Said I've Never Been Hooked Like This
But I Tell Ya
(Girl I'm All For It)
(You I Adore It)
Anything You Tell Me That
You Need Girl I'll Get It
(I'm In It For The Long Run)
(I Swear You've Got Me On One)


I'm Gonna Ride Till The End Of Time
I'm (Witch You Witch You My Baby)
You Gotta Understand
(I Need) All I Do Is Think Of You
And I Swear
That I've Never Felt


Our Love Could Be Perfect
And That's What I Feel For You
And Don't You Forget That
That You're More Than Worth It

And That's What I Feel For You
I Feel Like Ali
When He Shook Up The World
And Like Prince Felt When He Wrote
"The Most Beautiful Girl"
Your Love Is Like A Song I Love To Sing
And That's What I Feel For You


I Need To Everybody Who Needs Somebody
To Grab Em By The Hand And
Tell Em Just Like This:
That When I'm With You
I Don't Want No One Else
You Gotta Me Feeling Better Than
I've Ever Felt


I'm Talking About Everyday (Day)
And Every Night (Night)
And When I Hold You In My Arms
It's Just Like Heaven
Nothing Feels Better
I Can't Believe It
It Took Me So Long
But I Ain't Ever Felt


Our Love Could Be Perfect
And That's What I Feel For You
And Don't You Forget That
That You're More Than Worth It
And That's What I Feel For You
I Feel Like Ali
When He Shook Up The World
And Like Prince Felt When He Wrote
"The Most Beautiful Girl"
Your Love Is Like A Song I Love To Sing
And That's What I Feel For You

I've Never Felt That...


Our Love Could Be Perfect
And That's What I Feel For You
And Don't You Forget That
That You're More Than Worth It
And That's What I Feel For You
I Feel Like Ali
When He Shook Up The World
And Like Prince Felt When He Wrote
"The Most Beautiful Girl"
Your Love Is Like A Song I Love To Sing
And That's What I Feel For You

That's What I Feel For You
That's What I Feel For You...

chubs
p.s I Love You
with all my heart
always and forever
****,
(';

When the heart says it all

only for you,
my feelings will stay this way.

Never wanna hurt you,
never will i leave you alone.

Everytime im by your side,
is when im really at ease and at joy.

Always and forever,
i dare to say it to you.

You're the reason why im smiling at the start of the day.
And i hope you know i mean it everytime that i say.

I love you always and forever,
it will always be the same.

The moment you're in pain,
i wanna be there for you.

Cryin everytime you cry
sharing laughter with you.

When I look into your eyes
i hope you know my love for you is true
stronger than imagined
higher than the sky
deeper than sea

Remember you can call me
anytime you're feelin down.

No girl can take your place
and i will never ove another girl the same way i love you

i need you
cos thats what i really need in life

You were the one i chose,
out of all the rest.

The one who i would cherish, and im puttin on my best.

Every single second that i live,
i think about you

Tell me what im suppose to do,
if you're not here

I want to be the one thats by your side through the years.
Wanna be the one whose gonnna fight away all your tears.
Replacing it with happiness and take away all your fears.

I wouldn't trade you for the world, you're all that i need.

And i love you, wit all my heart and soul till i die.

I truly need you,
you're the light in my life.
because im always gon treat you right.

my love and my best friend,
Until the day i die, i'll try to give you the world.

If loving you is wrong, then i dont want to be right.

The day we met, i cant explain the way that i felt.
Feeling all these emotions that i cant even help.
If i didnt meet you, there wont be smile on my face.
everything you do make my heart beat fast or race.
Every little thing you do is just so special to me.

Everytime you smile, i cant explain the feeling inside.
Always gonna treat you good,
forever and always.

BUT........

who am i
i dont have the looks
nor quality
a girl like u deserves the best

dear ****
im sorry that i love you
this feeling is unbearable
i love you for years
now u left
and..
if you found a man of your choice out there
i want u to know this
i will always love you
with all my heart
and will always do
i wont be happy but i'll pray for ur happiness
i wanna be with you
but if ur heart says no
i'd leave
but i'll always love you
always and forever
with all my heart
****
/';

i love you and always will I';

Sometimes late at night
I think about her
I see her pictures
anything just to remind me of her
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

so all my friends out there
if theres no tomorrow for me
take care of her
for me
i love her
i really do
help her when she falls
i love her
i always do
forever and always..

(edited from the song 'if tomorrow never comes' by Ronan Keating)

from Chubs
With Love
'i love u *****'

a little update

heys. im back to blogging.. duhh... reason why? i dont know. writing notes on Facebook membuatkan saya rinduu blogging. haha so here i am. (; si lampuh, is back to business!!

so yeah. jjust a little update. err today, 2/3, nothing much happened actually. its Rafa's birthday!! and the day isnt over yet when i write this post. so yeah. heee

i didnt go to school today cos i am having a terrible FEVER! still but its gettin better. got a bruise on my right hand, after i fell off during the cross country. dayyum it's soo painful and 3 of my fingers were swollen. my parents were afraid i might get the fever from the bruise. a.k.a infection lah tu ah. so early morning around 7+ go with sii daddy ke Rimba Clinic. register and find a seat. found two for us, then sit lah. then waiting punya waiting, a last! our names were called ara the 2nd counter. then there check blood pressure lah apa lah. the nurse called me alai. ehhh. aint i too big fr that? heh. te alai alai ani wahh. haha then everything okay, then tarus ke bilik dr. skajap ahh service nya tapii awal awal, bekulat menunggu. haha. masuk, explain evrything nananana then abiss. ambil ubat. then datang my mum. heh. rupanya kan bawa makan.. cheh~

we went to Khaz Corner di Rimba Complex. i ate Kolo Mee sama Hot Milo. nada green tea ahh. then after that balik. makan ubat. then tidurrr.. cos the ubat effectnya bari ngantuk. so apa lagi, tidurlahh. haha thats it fr today. its 5.30 in the afternoon now so yeah, maybe krrg lagi update or, indaa. ahahaha depends ;p. aights laterr thenn, (;

Chubs

p.s. I Love U
u know who. (;

A Country Song

its a song by Joe Nichols, i'll wait for you. i bet most of you know how my story is and this one didnt look like it but it feels like it. get it? im willing to wait for her. no matter how long it takes. and this song seriously made me cry. feels deep inside. try hear the song then read this. to you, the one i love, i'll wait for you.. i love you.




The snow in Montana was three feet high
The lady at the counter said: There ain't no flights
And so he called her on the telephone
He said: I'll rent a car and I'll drive home

And she said: I'll wait for you
Like I did last year
At Christmas time with your family here
And your truck broke down out in San Antone
And the gifts stayed wrapped until you got home
Oh, this ain't nothin' new
Sweetheart, I'll wait for you

Now he's on his cell phone in a Coupe Deville
Talkin' to the one he loves and always will
His heart is breakin' 'cause she's there alone
Her heart is achin' 'cause she wants him home
She says: I'll wait for you like in '68
When our child was due, but I said, he'll have to wait
Until his dad gets here and stands by my side
Remember, Dear, our son's first cry
Oh, this ain't nothin' new
Sweetheart, I'll wait for you

He didn't stop all day to eat a bite
And he finally got there around midnight
The doctor said, she's in a better place
She said to give this you this note just in case

And it said, I'll wait for you at Heaven's gate
Oh, I don't care how long it takes
And I'll tell Saint Pete I can't come in
Without my love and my best friend
Oh, this ain't nothin' new
Sweetheart, I'll wait for you
P.S. I love you, too
Sweetheart, I'll wait for you

)';
chubs

1) Where and when was your last kiss?
- never been kissed.

2) What color underwear/boxers/thong wearing now?
- green boxer.

3) What are you listening to right now?
- her favourite songs i knew

4) Whats your favorite number?
- her number. seriously. cant say it.

5) What was the last thing you ate?
- mandarin orange.

6) When was the last time you smiled?
- just now while reminiscin.

7) How is the weather right now?
- cloudy. coldy bit

8 ) Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
- her.

9) What is your worst habit?
- bitting my nails and last minute do-er

10) Do you drink?
- uhuh. not any alcohol beverages.

11) Do you smoke?
- hell no.

12) When was the last time, if ever, you blacked out?
- yesterday.

13) Girlfriend/Boyfriend?
- wanna have one. but i dunt think she felt the same way.

14) Your Hair color?
- black.

15) Eye Color?
- brown

16) Do you wear contacts?
- havent tried. i have no sight problems

17) Favorite day?
- days spent with her

18) Favorite Month?
- cant say

19) Have you ever cried for no reason?
- uhuh

20) What was the last movie you watched?
-charlie's angel

21) Favorite Day of the Year?
- Days spent with her is always my favourite.

22) Are you too shy to ask someone out?
- i dont know

23) Last advice you received?
- try harder for the A levels.

24) What was the highlight of your weekend?
- no highlights, if there is no her

25) Chocolate or Vanilla?
- love both

26) What is the last text message you received?
-its personal.

27) What is the last text message sent?
- again its personal

28) Who was the last person you call?
-why?

29) What was the last sports game you watched?
- soccer

30) When was the last time you slept in someoneelse’s bed?
- last night. on my bro's

31) Favorite movies?
- too many to be mentioned

32) Favorite football Team?
- Manchester United

33) What were you doing before this?
- calling and calling

4) Any pets?
- a fish and several turtle

Your favorite Drink?
- Green Tea and some freezes.

36) Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
- Butter

37) Dogs or cats
-Cats

38) Favorite flower?
- i'll love it if she loves it

39) When was the last time you got in trouble?
- cant remember

40) Have you ever loved someone?
- always

.41) Who would you like to see right now?
- Her. only.

42) Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
-Yeah

43) Have you ever fired a gun?
- not a gun. a rifle actually

44) Do you like to travel by plane?
- yes.

45) What websites do you go to frequently,besides friendster?
- blogs, soccernet, youtube, her blogs

46). If you could be with anybody right now who would it be?
- her. seriously her.

47) How many pillows do you sleep with?
- 2

48) Are you missing someone?
- Ver very

49) How was your day
-not like the days with her

50) 8 People To Tag

1)Ajees
2) zie
3) baby goat
4) mumz
5) The Lgs
6) Dan dan
7) Julaly
8) Malina

my downs.

Do you think you're hot?
- i know where to put myself. and i admit im not hot. not even close to it.

Upload your favourite picture of you.

im sorry i cant. it'd involve another person. so yeah. sorry. next time.

Why do you like that picture?
- cos its what i see and feel when im in need. i missed her always. so get a clue? that picture contains a her. so yeah. i love her. very.

What's the last song you listened to?
- don't leave me by Pink

What name would you prefer besides yours?
- a combination of my name and hers. i cant really say it. sorry

tag 5 people..

1. Ajeez
2. Baby Goat
3. Zie
4. Julaly
5. Mumz

Who is number 1?
- One of my bestie. he understands me well. (;

Number 3 is in relationship with?
- she's single. (;

Say something about number 5
-never ever give up and he will be yours (;

How about number 4?
- funny. humorous. clever. and lagi..

Who is number 2?
- My bestie.......

when this heart says it out

Here i am..

waiting and hoping for the stars

to feel this 'miss' feeling in my heart..

here i am standing..

waiting with full of patience..

without sweetness

without convincing promises

to show u..

all i got

is the determination to love u

which i have been holding

for a prolongued period of time..

dear..

ima give u love,

if that's what you want from me..

ima care for you,

to lighten ur days..

ima love you,

till my last breath..

i will..

fulfill all the promises i've made to you

the one i love

always and forever.

chubs.

Tagged by mumz bebeh ((;



1. sii goat (haha!)
2. mumz bebeh (;
3. Ajeez
4. Julaly
5. Zie
6. Pijah
7. malina
8. bebeh
9. Dan Dan

How do you know 1?
- haha! atu.. my bestie tu. sayang saya tu. haha well how do i know her? schoolmate andd bestie (; and sama sama gilai minuman yang sama. a..pa..kann... haha!

What would you do if you never met 2?
- never i thought of that. she's my kawan rapat dari dulu hingga sekarang. haha nada ia? maybe aku inda saran laa. hahahaha nadawa beh (;

What would you do if 3 & 4 dated you?
- haha bekirik jua ku tuu soalannya ani ta. hahaha!

Would 5 & 6 make a good couple?
- haha i dont know. masing masing lain conceptnya. pijah crazy crazy, zie diam diam amcam tekirit. haha nadawa zie *kiraikirai*

Do you think 7 is attractive?
- haha inda attractive dimana, miss Mariah pun gugup ba becakap sama ia. eyah haha OUT OUT! hahahaha

Do you know anything about 8's family?
- haha sii bebeh? haha nada ku tau menau lai~ hahaha ia atu sutt banar ba. becakap sama ia mesti ketawa tuu. haha

Tell me something about 9?
- Dan Dan? urang yang mengenalkan aku pada Nasi Katok Kaka. haha andd, alainya anak urang atas atas, haha and, ia ani indon, hahaha and, has a nice powerful finishing mun main bula. hahah!

What language does 2 speak?
-ehhh macam macam pandainya ni. sabut saja. burma pakistan mexico ah sabut saja. ahh mana ya pandai tu. hahaha i think c beh ani tau cakap asian languages, such as Korea and all. off course malay and english lah aa. haha inda ja beh? hahaha

Who is 3 going out with?
- syidah laaa... his beloved wifey soon to be. HAHA

How old is 4?
- 17 taun. anching lakat. eyah inda sadar diri. hahaha

Who is 6 favourite singer?
- im not sure. katanya its the song that matters. mun lagunya lawa, aa lawa tah tu ya. hahaha

Is 8 single?
- sii bebeh? haha engaged kali udahh.. haha sal cincinnya atu inda mau lapas ba. hahaha!

What is 9 last name?
- Matyussof i guess..

Would you consider being a relationship with 1?
- aaaa...

Which school does 2 go to?
- dari awal sampai ani PDS (recently known as SMS), and she planned to go to PTE KAtok this year (;

What do you like about 3?
- ajeez? haha antahah. he has this macam, hidden sweetness and hidden kindness. HAHAHAHA