yeah, its almost 1st August of the 'full of tears' year 2009. The year hasnt ended yet but lotsa things are seriously getting on our emotion in every state and medium. whether its love story, of friendship, or birthday, or whatever. maybe 2009 is your best year so far but im one among the ones who's dying slowly through the 2009 chronology. whether you get me on this, it doesnt really matter. im saying what the heart says.
okay ima gonna say what happened to my so called 'love life', the reason why i create this blog. to story off the live life. im still waiting. waiting outside the door, for hours that feels like seconds, just to give you your favourite chocolate. we go for what we intend. so i'll wait. i can leave anytime but i just dont want to. i saw your kind and sweet neighbours but nothing like you. my heart goes kind, saying i should give the chocolate to your neighbours but i just dont want to. i saw your neighbours have better chocolates already so i dont think they'll take mine plus still, i dont want to cos its all for you. i can wait for a few hours more. dont worry i can wait. but deep in my heart i can say its impossible for you to open the door and accept my gift. cos i can be anything in your eyes. i just hope you know the chocolate's for you, from me, not from someone else.
- you dont get the above part? ajees i know you'll paham the above part (;-
approach me, to know what the part means.
its been years. honestly 1st august, is when i realised your presence. 1st August 2004. i might not love you for that time but at least im prepared for it. its almost 5 years now. and i'll say i'll love you for another 5 years and more. you've said to me, indirectly, to move on. but why. if it ever hurt you, to know that i love you let me know. i'll leave, i will. but if you ever are alone, and you felt theres some kind of presence beside you, know that its me, loving you wherever you are.
i can say i almost give the chocolates to your neighbour. but somehow as i was about to go to your neighbour, they keep chocolates, a better one, to give it to someone better. so i changed my mind and tried to stay put.
i tried to stay put cos nothing is the same, nothing is similar, to what i felt for you.
honestly i almost did fell for someone, almost, but love takes time brother. it may took months, at least. plus she's in the same situation as i am. she's head over heels for a guy so i'll never get the attention. but you, dearest, i'll wait. i'll wait and will wait. hopes will fade. but i'll follow the heart. i love you.
-chubs
p.s. jees, kau paham ni. im sure hehe. others, let me know by the chatbox (;
thanks
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